Charlotte Joanne Nelson

Charlotte Joanne Nelson was born on 1.11.11 at 3:18 pm without a heartbeat. She weighed 5 lbs 14 oz and was 20 inches long. She was beautiful.

I am writing this post because I know a lot of people want to know what happened, but don't know how to ask or if they should. We appreciate everyone being considerate of our feelings, but we're okay talking about it. And we definitely don't want anyone to feel weird around us or withhold important information from us because they think it might make us sad.

My last day of work was 1.7.11 and I moved to Provo on 1.8.11. On Sunday 1.9.11 Matt and I were at church in our new ward, and little Charlotte was kicking like crazy during Sunday School. And that was the last time that I remember feeling her move. I went to bed Sunday night thinking it was weird that she wasn't moving, but thought she was tired from all the moving and stress I'd been going through and figured she was sleeping. However, Monday morning when I woke up and she still wasn't moving I knew something was wrong. Matt and I went over to UVRMC and went to the emergency room. Apparently the ER doesn't deal with people that are more than 12 weeks pregnant, and I was 36 weeks, so we were sent up to labor & delivery. The admitting process took forever. At least it felt like it took forever. A baby's life was hanging in the balance, and they were worried about getting Matt's work information and my cell phone number. When we were finally admitted, we were taken to a room and they asked me to put on one of those awesome hospital gowns. Again I felt like time was being wasted. Why couldn't they just get an ultrasound machine and check to see if she was moving? After I finally got changed and ready the nurse came in and used a stethoscope thing to find a heartbeat. She searched all over my stomach and couldn't hear anything. So she went to get an ultrasound machine to find the heartbeat. I was terrified. I knew something was wrong and was just praying that I was wrong and panicking for no reason. Our nurse came in with the ultrasound machine and started looking for Chuck's heartbeat. When we saw her on the monitor she wasn't moving and there was no movement in the area where you should be able to see the heartbeat. You could tell she felt bad and didn't want to be the one to tell us that our baby had died, but she didn't need to tell us. We could see that there was no movement. That little ultrasound monitor that once brought us so much joy, was now the thing that brought us the most pain and sadness we've ever experienced.

The delivery was difficult and forceps had to be used, but we made it through. They let us keep Charlotte with us overnight and spend some time with her before the guy from the mortuary came. Our families came and got to hold her and see what a beautiful baby she was. We will always miss and love our baby girl and look forward to the day we get to see her again. And we are so grateful for the time we got to spend with her. Even if it was just a few short hours with her lifeless body, it was so special and sacred for us to be together as a family.

Thank you again for all your love and prayers that you have sent our way over the past few months. It has made all the difference in the world.

Baby Coming!!

We're really excited about our new little addition that will be joining us in February. Hopefully by the time she comes out she's a little cuter than this.
At least she's smiling and seems to be pretty content with where she's at. Let's hope she stays that way for a while :)

Matt with straight hair?!?!?!

So some of you, I'm sure, have spent evenings wondering, "what would Matt Nelson look like with straight hair?" Well wait no longer my friends. Because we finally did it. We straightened his hair. Now try to put all of your ideas of how Matt normally looks aside and let me know what you truly think of the new do. Enjoy! I know I did!

Almost my Birthday

So, usually when Matt asks me what I want for my birthday, I say something like....."Oh I don't really need anything" or "I don't know". But I have come to realize that with a husband, or anyone else for that matter, you won't get what you want unless you tell them. So Matt this is for you.....now you will know.

1 I want new clothes, and not just one sweater, I want a whole new wardrobe. And I know we can't afford for me to get a new wardrobe, but I still want it.

2 I want to go on a surprise vacation. It doesn't have to be somewhere too fancy like Italy or New Zealand, but I wouldn't mind a cruise or a trip to Hawaii or Disneyland (we do have season passes...remember?). That's not asking too much is it?

3 I want a new couch! And not just any couch, I want the couch at Z-Gallerie that is like sitting on a giant teddy bear. Cause I love it!!

4 I want to be pampered in a spa (massage, pedicure, manicure and maybe another massage). It just sounds so relaxing.

5 I want to get our tv/internet fixed so I can add more things to my blog and people won't think I am a slacker.

6 I want a Wii Fit...oh wait, I already got that.

7 I want to see some friends that we haven't seen in a while (ex: Frisby's, Lifferth's, Stucki's, Whitaker's, Mildenstein's) There are more of you too that I want to see, I am just helping Matt come up with a few ideas.

8 I want Rock Band. Then people will want to come and play games with us. Also cause it's really fun and I want to play it.

9 I want laser hair removal. For everything. Cause I think I might hate shaving more than I hate Kiera Knightley on Pirates 2.

10 I want to eat sushi more. Cause it turns out I really like it.

I think after reading all the things I want, you might realize why I say things like...."Oh I don't really need anything" or "I don't know". Cause I know most of it, is just not feasible right now. But maybe a couple things are? Yes? I guess I will just have to wait and see. The anticipation is killing me!!

4 Year Anniversary

Well....today is mine and Matt's four year anniversary! I can't believe it either. We always tell people that we didn't even think we would make it this long. Always in a kidding manner, but really in this day and age 4 years can be quite an accomplishment. I just wanted to take the opportunity to say how much I appreciate my husband. He is so amazing! Here are just a few things that I love about Matt and being married to him.
1. I love Matt for loving me
2. I love being married and always having someone to turn to.
3. I love Matt for being such a good friend to everyone he meets. (I wish I was more like him in this aspect)
4. I love Matt for always being able to help me laugh off the things that really don't matter, but for some reason hurt my feelings. (I'm such an emotional wreck sometimes)
5. I love Matt for trying so hard in school, because he wants to get a good job to support me and our future family. (No I am not announcing anything.....so stop asking)
6. I love Matt for making dinner on the nights that I am just so exhausted from work. I don't have to ask him to do it, he just does.
7. I love having someone that knows all the inside jokes and laughs along with me, even when no one else is.
8. I love Matt for telling me that I am beautiful when I am feeling at my very worst.
9. I love Matt for liking, or at least pretending to like, my cooking......when I do it.
10. I love Matt for everything that he is and everything that we are together.
Thanks honey for four awesome years!!! Can't wait to see what happens next!!

Capital G

No I am not referring to the Nine Inch Nails song (although it is a good one), I am referring to our new little kitty. His name is Capital G. Everyone asks for the story behind it so here it is. My sister Bree found some abandoned kittens at her work. She found them when they were about a week old and so she found herself taking care of five newborn kittens. One weekend we were all at a wedding and Bree brought the kittens. We didn't want to get too attached to the kittens so we were just calling them by what color their fur was. Unfortunately, there were to gray kittens. So Bree came up with the genius idea of calling one gray and one gray with a capital G. The whole "don't want to get too attached" thing didn't really work (obviously) and I ended up taking one of the gray kitties. Matt and I thought Capital G was actually kind of a cool name.....so we stuck with it! Now G is a part of our family and we just love him to death! He is so stinking cute. We have actually had him for about three months now and he is getting so big. So here are some pictures of G through the ages. Enjoy!!

Matterhorn.....Take Two!!!

Well we attempted to visit the Matterhorn earlier this week and it just didn't work out. We went to Zermatt, where the Matterhorn is located, and it was so cold and foggy that we couldn't see anything. I mean nothing, not even a hint of the mountain was visible. So now that we are into our free days Matt and I decided to give it one more shot. And it was so worth it!! It was a gorgeous day, not a cloud in the sky! We spent more time on the train getting there, than we actually spent in Zermatt, but it was worth it to me. It seems like if you are going to be in Switzerland then you should see the Matterhorn while you are there. Others may not agree with me, but I don't care. I thought it was an incredible sight to see!








This was the first attempt to see the Matterhorn. Not a whole lot to write home about.
















This was attempt number two! Obviously a much better day! So glad I got to see it!